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youre only a whore who deserves no thanks unless you have enough kleig lights
i have had to leave work early and loose money. i also had to work extra hours in the beginning of the week in large blocks to be able to do this. i had to go back to work afterwards and finish my job. i had to come home and unload thousands of pounds of expensive , sensitive equipment. in the rain.

i had to load it in by myself too and fight with cops to get down my street.

i had given up djing for many reasons- one of those reasons is a told myself i would never ever work near or around a band-youre always negated to useless untalented nigger when bands are around BECAUSE THEY ARE THE TRUE STARS- so go over in the corner with this 'close and play' and shut up.

my close and play cost thousands of dollars thank you .

i really should listen to myself. did i mention i had given up djing and swore to never do it again because of all the bullshit involved and how draining it was. why dont i listen to myself. why why why.

it was good money while it lasted- a hundred or so an hour- but the drugs were the only thing that got me through it all and i know i cant do that again.

i realize my system is better than me but all in all i imagined somewhere in it all i was a human trying to do i good thing- must remind self- never do good things for people- you end up in the rain with blood covered hands trying to disassemble and yank up your back window- black hard rubber black oil soot- all for naught. i was just the dj- i made no effort because i didnt have flashing lights .

yes but i had a power strip everyone kept taking and was begrugingly given one outlet and would have been on the floor without a table.
uh we only have half the hall-do you have to put your records in that small 1 foot by 1 foot space even though were not on until last and its urgent that you set up now ?

luckily ive seen all this behavior before. i know that if id been more of an asshole, i would get similarily more respect. that's how it works. finailly i just ripped their goddamn cords out of my powerstrip. still i feel i didnt reach the correct height of obnoxious assholeness because apparently i made no effort.

and then there's geoffrey- oh thank allah for geoffrey -with more after hours ghetto liquor and our fucked up sense of humor. i havent laughed that hard all week and despite the blood and my aching back- we scry the fools, including ourselves, and howl in the rain.

he ends up telling me the whole police roadblock was because someone WAS shot and killed but "...no one liked him anyway. they were just sick of his shit." " uh they thinned out the herd?" " hehe yeah they culled him..."

mmm culling the herd....

well cull everyone on earth and your goddamn kleig lights too-youre in a vfw hall not the fleet center- im still sweating and i think i have a sunburn. i was seeing stars but not the sort that are mentioned in rollingstone or on the e channel.

no one can be entertained anymore because they respond to specific packaged product only rather than to passion and interest and the true importance of people coming together for music and dancing as a social and spiritual communion- we've divorced ourselves from the root meaning and rendered the act meaningless and cut adrift in a murky stagnant pond of commercialized pop culture automation and the ruthless ego driven fantasy of stardom over talent (and an ability to connect to an audience sometimes even despite themselves).

i feel lucky- i have seen unfettered joy on a dancefloor- even in yes a night club-its made me break down and cry.

now the motor for my back window just breaks down.

buy or die and we're dead.

oh how burnt we all feel....fortunately for my lack of human feelings i just walk on by- made for the shade.

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We appreciated your talent, time, and effort more than you realized last evening...even if Jay didn't get his YMCA request ;-)

he said it wasnt for him but for one of the cats...
i knew he was lying.....

Oh, but you don't know those cats...

usually i come home to a depraved debached scene of hookahs, oriental rugs and crack whores in veils with kitty listening to noodely free form jazz while ensconced on fluffy pillows...when theyre not listening to german gabba hardcore techno from the 90s...

Hve you ever read this?

The books of Joshua and 2 Samuel both refer to the much more ancient Book of Jasher. They say it's very important, the Book of Jasher. Where is it? Not in the Bible. Like so many other books, it was purposely left out. But does it still exist? Yes. The nine-foot Hebrew scroll of Jasher still exists. It has been historically important for a long, long time. It was the jewel of the court of Emperor Charlemagne, and the translation of the Book of Jasher was the very reason that the University of Paris was founded, in the year 800. That was about a century before the Old Testament that we know was actually put together.

Jasher was the staff-bearer to Moses. His writings are of enormous significance. The accounts relate to the story of the Israelites in Egypt, to their exodus into Canaan. But these stories differ considerably from the way we know the story today. They explain that it was not Moses who was the spiritual leader of the tribes who crossed the Red Sea to Mount Sinai. The spiritual leader was Miriam.

At that time the Jews had never heard of Jehovah; they worshipped the goddess Asherah. Their spiritual leaders were largely female. Miriam posed, according to the Book of Jasher, such a problem for Moses in his attempt to create a new environment of male dominance that he imprisoned her; and the Jewish nation rose against Moses with their armies to secure Miriam's release. This is not in the Bible.

Re: Hve you ever read this?

i see nothing biblical in my epic tale of Whitney Houston's Entourage and I.. save that thinning out the herd is usually a good idea and so is driving the unround headed herd from the Temple Mount because they were like everyone else- warring not chosen, usurpers and survivors no different from any other fool in the sand- burying mommy to engrandize daddy.

most of the early books of the old testament- like noah which is the oldest ( techinically, not in printed position,- predating genisis)have preexisting babylonian and iranian (from ur sumer etc etc) tales they stole and riffed on. the flood is an pagan archtype older than writing, longer than memory, proven by modern science.

judaism is not the first monotheism-and ceratainly it usurped the goddesses that populated it's pagan history-zoroastrianism is. he was jesus before jesus, premohammad mohammad, mo'moses than moses...a patriarchal lie teller in a big power grab. the jews stole from his act big time.

the cradle of civilization and organized Messiah/ Punishment Heaven Hell religiousity ( as well as it's precurser, particularly in the east,- Vedism- the original inhabitants of india where killed by people from iran we call aryans and vedism spread and helped found hinduism and buddism)- ) that has shaped the entire world, our western world, since recorded history is Iran and Persia Mohammad Persia is the Messiah from a time before jews and islamists and christians ...

she's justified and ancient. she's usually RELEVANT too...

we're born of a mother- it seems more than apparent that's who created us all. mary might as well be miriam, she might as well asherah. jesus said his most important follower was mary( mary mary mary- marsha marsha marsha) magdalen but we're stuck listening to paul .

of course you know that miriam and mary are really versions of the same name...there's also a babylonian goddess called mari to the persians she was mariham . a city dedicated to Mari astounded the archeologists who discovered it- she ruled the fucking world.

the jews were just rip off artists like everyone else-moses's whole life is cribbed from egyptian and akkadian mythology. zoroaster was tossed some rocks by ahura mazda, too, on some mountaintop. gods seem to spend a lot of time heaving marble at bearded dorks hanging out at the ski lift looking to score some power tools to fool the befuddled sheep -like masses..

the pentateuch( first 5 books of the old test) was written by priests in jerusalem after the babylonian exile- a significant time before there could have been any thought of charles the great and his christian frog kingdom. in the first cent bc and ad versions of the ' bible' were floating about.
the bible we know should be destroyed for blasphemy, charcter assassination and be removed from shelves due to the fact that it's a mistranslated, forged, plagarized tissue of lies and deceit that way too many people use against others in the most vicious and deadly manner.

it's a hit job on Mommy and i have a feeling she's not well pleased.

Babylonian Mari had a blue robe too.

Re: Have you ever read this?

I have read (seems like the more I read the less I know) that the reason the Catholic Church has Mary wearing Blue and White was because they were neutral colours that wouldn't giving her status other then the Mother of God, at the time Mary Magdalen was shown with gowns of Black (e.g. the Black Madonna) or Red giving her the status of Priestess or higher ... and you know how the Church feels about a women with power.

Re: Have you ever read this?

mary is appearing allegedly at a local hospital as i type...no comment was available for her robe colour and the administration of the hospital has thrown a tarp over her.


in egyptian antiquity there were many prayers directed toward Isis to be protected from red things. the blue robe with stars is a common pagan image of the goddess who is the vault of the heavens.

the jews where a semetic people who's 'home' was part of the epicenter of human civilization as we know it. moses is an egyptian name. the flood is an akkadian myth- found among other places in the Epic of Gilgamesh- (long before the establishment of the temple and the exile and the book of Noah being written).. despite themselves their slip is showing...you cant deny your roots so you absorb them, alter them to fit your power reality and demonize the gods and goddesses who your ancestors originally paid homage to.

it's all about power and control- who becomes the demonized, less than bottem in a religion indicates the original power base that was subverted. its propaganda writ as holy revelation. its really base and venal.

jesus himself is a replication of many ancient myths- including that of Mithra who's worship includes a eat my body and blood bread and wine ceremony. the catholic church has a lot invested in covering up it's pagan roots, be they patriarchal or matriarchal. it proved impossible however to divert ' the people' from Mother worship- being so deep and closely intwined with human feelings and experience of the actual birth process. therefore there are a veritable crop of Mary's in the jesus story. the fact that jesus never seems to appear to people of a christian bent but only mary seems to indicate where their deepest sympathies lie.

the churhes vilifying of females indicates the location of their greatest fear-if mary returned the power to the priestesses-they'd get tossed out of the temple for fucking little boys,covering up and condoning crime and selling saintliness to the depraved and cruel like cheap fucking harlots.

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